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hello
yah saya tau, ini siang hari dan saya online dan sangat tidak biasanya. sebelumnya saya sedang mengerjakan translate dari teman saya yang ada di jatam. tapi karena saya bete tralala saya putuskan untuk online. saya beranjak dari kamar saya yang pengap mengambil laptop dan modem dan pergi ke teras samping rumah untuk tidur-tiduran menikmati siang yang terik untungnya mama saya yang baik hati cantik sekali ini menyuguhkan es teh dan sedikit camilan yang pastinya pas banget dengan panas terik hari ini.

ada yang beda dengan mama saya belakangan hari ini, mama mulai menginginkan hal-hal yang aneh, tidak biasa. terutama pada makanan. mama juga terlihat agak sedikit gemuk. sepertinya sih seperti itu hehehe. mungkin juga karena faktor saya jarang ngeliat mama jadi ketika benar-benar di perhatikan agak sedikit berbeda, mama terlihat agak sedikit bongsor :p

apa mama saya hamil?
huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
TIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKKK!!!
kekhawatiran saya tentang mempunyai adik baru semakin besar ketika keinginan mama mulai tambah aneh. memang sih bukan hal besar, tapi akan ada banyak perubahan besar yang akan terjadi dan saya pastinya tidak siap :(

huah, semoga saja tidak :(

amourdemavie, happy anniversary :*

amourdemavie, we've been through a year together. i'm so happy that i found you. well i wanna give you another homework as a gift from me in our 1st anniversary :p

so, good luck honey :*

Baby I see you working hard 
I want to let you know I'm proud 
Let you know that I admire what you do 
Don't know if I need to reassure you, my life would be purposeless without you 
If I want it you got it 
When I ask you, you provide it 
You inspire me to be better 
You challenge me for the better 
Sit back and let me pour out my love letter 


Let me help you 
Take off your shoes 
Untie your shoe strings 
Take off your cufflinks 
What you wanna eat boo? 
Let me feed you 
Let me run your bathwater 
Whatever your desire, I'll supply yuh 
Sing you a song 
Turn my game on 
I'll brush your hair 
Help you put your do-rag on 
Want a foot-rub? 
You want a manicure? 
Baby I'm yours, I want to cater to you boy 


Let me cater to you 
'Cause baby this is your day 
Do anything for my man 
Baby you blow me away 
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert and so much more 
Anything you want just let me cater to you 
Inspire me from the heart 
Can't nothing tear us apart 
You're all I want in a man 
I put my life in your hands 
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert and so much more 
Anything you want, I want to cater to you 


Baby I'm happy you're home 
Let me hold you in my arms 
I just wanna take the stress away from you 
Making sure that I'm doing my part 
Boy is there something you need me to do? 
If you want it, I got it 
Say the word and I'll try it 
I know whatever I'm not fulfilling 
Another woman is willing 
I'm gonna fulfill your mind, body and spirit 


I promise ya 
I'll keep myself up 
Remain the same chick 
You fell in love with 
I'll keep it tight, I'll keep my figure right 
I'll keep my hair fixed, keep rockin' the hottest outfits 
When you come home late tap me on my shoulder, I'll roll over 
Baby I heard you, I'm here to serve you 
If it's love you need to give it is my joy 
All I want to do, is cater to you boy 


Let me cater to you 
'Cause baby this is your day 
Do anything for my man 
Baby you blow me away 
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert and so much more 
Anything you want just let me cater to you 
Inspire me from the heart 
Can't nothing tear us apart 
You're all I want in a man 
I put my life in your hands 
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert and so much more 
Anything you want, I want to cater to you 


I want to give you my breath, my strength, my will to be here 
That's the least I can do 
Let me cater to you 
Through the good, the bad 
The ups and the downs 
I'll still be here for you 
Let me cater to you 
'Cause you're beautiful 
I love the way you are 
Fulfill your every desire 
Your wish is my command 
I wanna cater to my man 
Your heart 
So pure your love shines through 
The darkness we'll get through 
So much of me is you 
I wanna cater to my man 


Let me cater to you 
'Cause baby this is your day 
Do anything for my man 
Baby you blow me away 
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert and so much more 
Anything you want just let me cater to you 
Inspire me from the heart 
Can't nothing tear us apart 
You're all I want in a man 
I put my life in your hands 
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert and so much more 
Anything you want, I wanna cater to you

happy anniversary amourdemavie

je t'aime a la mort, mon amour

Meet Lastri

Meet Lastri

Lastri itu merupakan sebuah boneka kelinci berwarna merah jambu yang di berikan amourdemavie pada saat ulang tahun saya yang ke 19 yang jatuh pada tanggal 20 desember kemarin. Boneka yang lucu dan imut itu kami namakan Lastri. Sekarang Lastri yang nemenin saya bobo tiap malem. Lastri yang gantiin amourdemavie kalo dia lagi ga ada di sebelah saya.

Thanks amourdemavie, for this lovely present, i love it so much.

Je t'aime a la mort, l'amour de ma vie :*

I'M 19 YEARS OLD FOR GOD SAKE!!!

well, yesterday's my birthday, MY 19TH YEAR OLD BIRTHDAY!!! yeah i'm still young i know but still I CAN'T STOP THE AGING. yadda yadda yadda.... blah... blah... blah...

hmmm yesterday is pretty awesome. gathering with my friends, even though just for watching movie together, and also with amourdemavie. even though i don't have a chance to meet my bff it's okay i still have fun. in this year is a bit different, there an additional, my brodaaah from anothaaah mothaaaaahh (brother from another mother) who just get out from jail.

one thing that makes me happy that, amourdemavie brought me a gift, HE BOUGHT ME A GIFT!!! i'm so excited. amourdemavie gave me a cute pink bunny. we gave her a name and her name is "Lastri". and now Lastri accompanied me while i'm sleeping, Lastri cured my loneliness when i missed amourdemavie.

well, no matter how, this is the best birthday ever :)
thank you, i love you all.
XOXO

December, Oh December...

hmmmm, hari ini hari pertama di bulan desember. bulan terakhir di tahun ini. mengingat ulang tahun saya jatuh pada tanggal 20 ini saya jadi semakin malas memikirkannya. bertambah tua? is not really a pleasure for me even though they said being 19 years old is still fine, young and great. 

WHAT??? GREAT???  WTF, you got to be shit'n me!

sudah 18 tahun, 18 kali saya melewati bulan desember. desember ini sedikit spesial karena ada amourdemavie yang menemani saya. satu desember lagi saya jalani. september, november, desember... huft, hari itu semakin dekat. hari dimana saya akan meninggalkan semua yang ada disini, di kota ini. meninggalkan keluarga, sahabat, teman-teman, dan yang terkasih.

sedih rasanya ketika mengingat moment-moment menyenangkan bersama mereka. terlebih bersama amourdemavie yang sudah sangat pasti tidak bisa saya dapatkan ketika saya berada disana. aah! sangsi...

amourdemavie
"aku ga mau kamu pergi"


DAMN!
lima kata itu bikin saya makin ragu untuk angkat kaki dari sini. the day is getting closer and i just can't leave it all behind. shit! saya meragukan keputusan yang telah saya buat. what the hell is wrong with me?

mommy
"Nak, kalo kamu disana, nanti gimana makan mu? Makin kurus kamu nanti, bakal sering sakit"


aah! kalimat itu lebih membuat ku enggan untuk beranjak. walaupun hari yang kami lewati tidak selalu menyenangkan, bahkan terlalu banyak yang menyedihkan buatnya.

carlos
"Nanda, kalo kamu pergi, aku ke ijima sama siapa?"


my goodness! si gendut ini juga ngangenin. dan saya juga bakal kangen juga sama tampang kerennya si bartender di ijima itu, haha

FUCK! it's all confusing, burns my head to think about it... januari, hmmm... tinggal 30 hari lagi.
we'll see...